weirdness is the place i am in
i am a gram,a mom,a daughter
no longer a wife
i have grown kids, teen kids, little kids
old house, no money
a cat and dog
as it has been the case for all my life
i don't fit in
i can't hang with friends my age
cuz they have the freedom of grown kids that i don't have
moms of 5 yr olds are my daughter's age or younger..
and i am still letting my parents down after all these years
that is a burden i need to let go of.
my kids ignore me and disrespect me
and then laugh at me and expect me to laugh along