I feel a huge urge to jump off this crazy train that I call my life.
I have lost 'me'.... remember back in the 70's everyone was busy finding themselves. I have found myself and I don't like me at all.
I am lazy, exhausted, confused, miserable, unloved, mean, selfish, fat, old, ugly....and that's just this morning.
this is what I am searching for.
I know I won't find it. I have to create it in myself.
blah blah blah.... all that psychobabble talk show crap
At least my house is clean ish.... since we moved.
My kids still disrespect me
--- so nothing has changed.
I disrespect myself
so how can I blame them???
this is what I thought life would be like
but it certainly is not
more like this
To: Meddling terrorist with nothing better to do
than destroy the mother of his children: ..
I thank you. You make me stronger everyday
All I can do is keep on loving my kids.
Try to love myself
make time for me a little bit. --like exercise!
Squeeze out some time for my boyfriend.
enough with the pep talk
I just want to run away.
Gonna go lock myself in the bathroom for a few.