so he did.
I miss you
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Random stuff I enjoy..... in addition to my 8 kids.
I have always liked dollhouses .... if I ever have free time
maybe I can build one again.
Coastal Maine
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amethysts
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riding on the back of Ross's harley
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of course only if I am well bundled and have
a hot cup of coffee.
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wild flowers
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LOL this says it all
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quaint villages
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would love to travel to Great Britain
and tour a castle or two..
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seriously my favorite place to shop and
sniff
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another fun place to shop
and buy bags of useless items. :)
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My favorite holiday.
Food Family & Fun
(and no presents!)
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really who doesn't love engagement rings?
....
Anne Rice's the Mayfair Witches.
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anything Harry Potter.
;)
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early reading.
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I would love to relax on a tropical island
for a few days
alone.
)))))))))))
had fun hope you liked looking inside
my head for awhile
♥
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Stuff I have learned (just this past week!)
It's almost as if my genius brain powers were just activated here in my 49th year. It's okay... I am a late bloomer.
So anyway I thought I was going to die last week... Paranoid you say? Hmm? Bad reaction to a med I've been taking happily for 2 years. Oh, well. I am going to live so that' s the good news.
oh, ya
Stuff I learned this week:
` Weaning off an antidepressant is scary. I am going to miss this security blanket.
` Stress will attack your body eventually and it will win
` Random angels will track you down... usually via Facebook and help you in tremendous ways.
` It's time to do something with your life, Cate. You are no longer young, nor slim, nor healthy.
` Stop pleasing everyone... first of all you aren't successful at it anyway. And it makes you miserable
` If you say you don't care what people think of you then MEAN IT! otherwise continue to be miserable and living a life They want you to live.
` You ya, you Cate cannot do it on your own. God is the only one to rely on. yup just the Big Guy.
` Some of your kids dislike your boyfriend.... tough cookies. hahah kids... you'll be moving out in a few years anyway.
` Demand better treatment or get rid of them..... farewell then, eh?
` Quit Smoking--- you are a moron for keeping this deadly habit.... I can yell at myself..ok? no one else can, though
` A good friend always arrives at the right time. I am blessed to have sisters that are not biological .... we unite in our pasts of pain and bring out the joy of NOW
` Keeping the house clean is a gift to myself. I like it this way... and by the way I love where I live now.
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So today is Sunday
the beginning of another week.... see those genius brain powers.--in action!
I can't wait to learn more stuff.
Soon I will solve all the puzzles of the universe... I mean after all I can program a VCR and set the clock on my microwave.
SUPER POWERS ACTIVATE!
So anyway I thought I was going to die last week... Paranoid you say? Hmm? Bad reaction to a med I've been taking happily for 2 years. Oh, well. I am going to live so that' s the good news.
oh, ya
Stuff I learned this week:
` Weaning off an antidepressant is scary. I am going to miss this security blanket.
` Stress will attack your body eventually and it will win
` Random angels will track you down... usually via Facebook and help you in tremendous ways.
` It's time to do something with your life, Cate. You are no longer young, nor slim, nor healthy.
` Stop pleasing everyone... first of all you aren't successful at it anyway. And it makes you miserable
` If you say you don't care what people think of you then MEAN IT! otherwise continue to be miserable and living a life They want you to live.
` You ya, you Cate cannot do it on your own. God is the only one to rely on. yup just the Big Guy.
` Some of your kids dislike your boyfriend.... tough cookies. hahah kids... you'll be moving out in a few years anyway.
` Demand better treatment or get rid of them..... farewell then, eh?
` Quit Smoking--- you are a moron for keeping this deadly habit.... I can yell at myself..ok? no one else can, though
` A good friend always arrives at the right time. I am blessed to have sisters that are not biological .... we unite in our pasts of pain and bring out the joy of NOW
` Keeping the house clean is a gift to myself. I like it this way... and by the way I love where I live now.
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So today is Sunday
the beginning of another week.... see those genius brain powers.--in action!
I can't wait to learn more stuff.
Soon I will solve all the puzzles of the universe... I mean after all I can program a VCR and set the clock on my microwave.
SUPER POWERS ACTIVATE!
Saturday, September 1, 2012
I just might live.
So excited to think I may recover from this horrid reaction I am having to my antidepressant.
Now I can look forward
TO
Babysitting my EmmaKate.
Well EmmaKate is my youngest grandchild (until December anyway). My oldest daughter is her mom.
EmmaKate is a wild girl. She is almost 3. This is EmmaKate right after she was born. I was like the 2nd one to hold her.
this is Emma with her cousin Camden (my only grandson)....
Anyway I am glad I am going to live.
I will be watching Emma on the days I don't work so my daughter can work part-time (she is such a go-getter) and while she is post-partum.
Gotta say I do feel badly for those around me now that I will be antidepressant free for the rest of my days... never do I want to suffer from these side effects again. Let's hope Emma brings lots of tissues for Gramma
Now I can look forward
TO
Babysitting my EmmaKate.
Well EmmaKate is my youngest grandchild (until December anyway). My oldest daughter is her mom.
Anyway I am glad I am going to live.
I will be watching Emma on the days I don't work so my daughter can work part-time (she is such a go-getter) and while she is post-partum.
Gotta say I do feel badly for those around me now that I will be antidepressant free for the rest of my days... never do I want to suffer from these side effects again. Let's hope Emma brings lots of tissues for Gramma
Friday, August 31, 2012
Duh! The answer has always been right in front of me.
Why Why Why?
Now as my body is attacking itself with a bad reaction to Effexor XR ( that I have been on for 2 years) ... I realize I have let negative things enter my body and life.
As I scramble on quick fixes and angry rantings I forgot that God has it covered.
Duh.... Cate of course your life has gone haywire.... You thought you could do it all yourself with no help.
~ I do believe there is evil in this world... it is an imperfect world.
I have let evil take over me and neglected the One who loves me and has forgiven me and all my sins.
Let's hope I remember this 5 minutes from now when I once again think I can do it all on my own
I thank you Jesus for your love for me,
a sinner who does not deserve one bit of it
Monday, August 13, 2012
Lost
Just stop
I feel a huge urge to jump off this crazy train that I call my life.
I have lost 'me'.... remember back in the 70's everyone was busy finding themselves. I have found myself and I don't like me at all.
I am lazy, exhausted, confused, miserable, unloved, mean, selfish, fat, old, ugly....and that's just this morning.
this is what I am searching for.
I know I won't find it. I have to create it in myself.
blah blah blah.... all that psychobabble talk show crap
At least my house is clean ish.... since we moved.
My kids still disrespect me
--- so nothing has changed.
I disrespect myself
so how can I blame them???
this is what I thought life would be like
but it certainly is not
more like this
To: Meddling terrorist with nothing better to do
than destroy the mother of his children: ..
I thank you. You make me stronger everyday
..
All I can do is keep on loving my kids.
Try to love myself
make time for me a little bit. --like exercise!
Squeeze out some time for my boyfriend.
ah,
enough with the pep talk
I just want to run away.
and hide.
Gonna go lock myself in the bathroom for a few.
I feel a huge urge to jump off this crazy train that I call my life.
I have lost 'me'.... remember back in the 70's everyone was busy finding themselves. I have found myself and I don't like me at all.
I am lazy, exhausted, confused, miserable, unloved, mean, selfish, fat, old, ugly....and that's just this morning.
this is what I am searching for.
I know I won't find it. I have to create it in myself.
blah blah blah.... all that psychobabble talk show crap
At least my house is clean ish.... since we moved.
My kids still disrespect me
--- so nothing has changed.
I disrespect myself
so how can I blame them???
this is what I thought life would be like
but it certainly is not
more like this
To: Meddling terrorist with nothing better to do
than destroy the mother of his children: ..
I thank you. You make me stronger everyday
..
All I can do is keep on loving my kids.
Try to love myself
make time for me a little bit. --like exercise!
Squeeze out some time for my boyfriend.
ah,
enough with the pep talk
I just want to run away.
and hide.
Gonna go lock myself in the bathroom for a few.
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