STUFF MY KIDS SAY

(legal disclaimer--this will violate just about everyone's civil rights)

shut up, you  loser,  I'm not gonna clean it, shut up or I'm gonna throw your castle away and your stupid dolls,  you faggot,  you suck, you're ugly, you're fat,  you smell,  i hate you,  you little pervert,  i'm not gonna clean it (they say that a lot) ,  you are white,  you're gonna get in trouble,  mother fucker, i'm gonna slap you, i am gonna freaking kill you,  fatty,  faggot, ya,go all josh on me,  zit face, consuela you're mexican,  time to freakin' die you ugly hags,  nigger, cracker, sissy, there are  boogie men under your bed, do it again,  ask mom,  mom said,  i swear to god i am gonna kill both of you,  i didn't mess it up,  you suck,  wtf, omg,   i didn't do it,  get her,  go ffreakin die,  that's mine,  mom, she stole my shirt,  I have nothing to wear,  get out of my room,  my weave is on the floor,

(it goes on and on)

when I wanted to be an interpreter

back in the fairy tale days of highschool
when i planned on being a career woman
specifically an interpreter at the UN
hold on   --- fantasizing
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oh ya
i have 8 kids instead that part is fine
its the 2 ex husbands and dog right now that are irking me
\mostly the dog
cuz she hate thunder
and is now destroying my kitchen
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Watch me go potty

ah,  5 yr olds.   she hates to be alone in the bathroom  wheras I would kill to be alone in the bathroom.  Not often possible in this house of 4 girls one boy and ONE bathroom.  I get up at 5 AM just to get in the shower.  and the bathroom door should not be locked while taking a shower since 5 other people need to get in to use the toilet and brush teeth (ha  that's funny --  who does that??). 
9 yr old is trying to explain that in September 5 yr old will have to potty alone ... in her own stall at school.  oh, the tears are flowing like a river  which just eggs the other girls on.   but we do put the FUN in dysFUNctional.   

teens

lovely day
patience rode her bike for a mile as i ran along side her.
then she played school with her american girl doll  kanani

teens arrive at home
dallas(14) and dakota(13) proceed to torture 5 yr old patience by
scaring her and screaming for no reason

mack(16) along with his friend now light sticks on fire (like survivor)
and run around the yard 

stereo blasting with music (unedited)  so we are grooving to "tonight i'm f*cking you"
so much fun here.   seriously no wonder the little kids are horrible and fresh
dallas is imitating a pole dancer   but hey she did put away the dishes that have been sitting there for days
what do the parenting mags say about this??  geesh...try parenting in a world where you can no longer smack your kids, and add a non custodial parent that tries to micromanage yet is unable to help in any practical  way   ---he has no driver's license (OUI)

take away laptops, i-pods, ds i, cell phones---i'd rather take them out in the woods and beat them

MISFIT

weirdness is the place i am in
i am a gram,a mom,a daughter
no longer a wife
i have grown kids, teen kids, little kids
old house, no money
a cat and dog


as it has been the case for all my life
i don't fit in
i can't hang with friends my age
cuz they have the  freedom of grown kids that i don't have


moms of 5 yr olds are my daughter's age or younger..


and i am still letting my parents down after all these years
that is a burden i need to let go of.


my kids ignore me and disrespect me
and then laugh at me and expect me to laugh along


fyi--it hurts

clothing shift

ok today is the day to switch out my winter clothes for summer clothes.
gonna be tears shed  since I am a fatty now.  ugh.

Happy Resurrection Sunday

just have a few minutes.
sonrise service starts at 7AM
which would be fine normally
but so many midnight calls from K-pin (my ex) about showing up with the police today.  I asked him why?  cuz he wasn't invited so he is bringing the police?????? 
hint: if you are going to drunk call people at midnight   try not to call the one who you are suing for custody of your children---on the basis that you are a better parent.  LOSER.


so enjoy your day peeeps  lol  can use that word today for sure\
cheap ham and potatoes for dinner